Who I Am!

My goodness… could there be any deeper of a question than who am I? I don’t know how I can describe all the little things about me in 750 words. There are definitely plenty of things that I’m not. I know I’m not a criminal, an atheist, or a liar. Who I am and what I stand for are some deep things that I have to ponder. It ‘s obvious that I am my father’s daughter, my classmate’s friend, and my teachers’ student but I am so much more than that as well. The beginning of discovering who I am was kind of like a brand-new, unopened book. I may appear a certain way on the outside and ultimately that’s the thing that will first attract people to me but there is a whole world of stories, adventures, dreams, and jokes inside.

I probably come off as an outgoing, outspoken, and fun-loving person to most people but that isn't around everyone and definitely not right away. I can be very shy and at a loss for words when I am around people I don’t really know. I love having people’s attention but not too many people.. I’d freak out. I love meeting new people and making new friends but I absolutely dread that awkward first few times I am around somebody that I don’t know. When I am trying to make a good impression I generally keep quiet and speak respectfully but when I start to really open up and show my true colors I'm a plethora of sarcasm and jokes. I love more than anything in the world to make people feel great and hearing someone laugh at the things I say couldn’t be a better feeling for me. I enjoy that moment when I realize that a friend is really opening up to me, it is sensational.

I am a bad mix of procrastination and time anxiety, but when I set my sights on something that I’m determined to finish well, it will. I get frustrated when I don’t know how to do something but it can be hard to get me to stop once I do know how. When I truly care about an outcome I put my whole heart into it and I cant help but let it completely consume everything that I do. When the reward comes for the hard work, like a good grade or a varsity letter, I get motivated to only do more, and better!

I am my Savior’s child. I love my Lord and my faith more than anything and everything.  I do it all for His glory. He put me on this Earth to spread the Word and everything I do represents Him. That is why it is so important to me to be kind to everyone. Whether we like to admit it or not, we all give and receive judgment upon each other so if I represent my faith in a good way by doing what I know is right then that reflects well on Him and possibly inspires non-believers to believe. I give Him praise and He gives me undeserved blessings. I may be discouraged at times but after I say a quick prayer I always feel better. I cant even describe in words who or what my Savior is to me but I know that I am for Him and by Him.

The recent tragic death of my friend Jacob has really inspired me to be a better me. He had the determination to do well in absolutely anything… and I mean ANYTHING! If he didn’t win it, he didn’t do it. Though I’m not near as hardcore as he is, I have been dedicated to making myself better. It’s almost been a year since he passed away but his legacy still lives on. He showed me how to look for the best in everyone and taught me a lesson on invincibility.. or the lack there of. I want to be remembered like he was… not by his disease, but by the tremendous fight that he put up for it.

I guess that in a nutshell I am nothing spectacular, but everything I do I put my heart into it. I'm not going to lie.. this was incredibly hard to write. I had never really had to explain to a stranger exactly who I am but I hope that by reading this one can get the general idea. Thanks for reading this incredibly drawn out and wordy post on who I am!